Pennys Poetry
By Penny Lowe
Copyright 2012
Smashwords Edition
This book is a collection of poetry that I have written in times of my life when I felt a flood of emotions and no one around to talk to. I have written them on a spur of the moment, or have thought about how the words would meld together, they are scattered throughout, not in any particular life order. Some of them were hard to write and hard to read even now. They bring back the emotions that I had when writing them.
Blue Bird
On a clear summer day
A bluebird sat in a tree
I thought could it be
This bluebird is there for me.
Why?
He could fly and be free
but he just perched and stared at me
As if to say
“hey you there, you need me?”
if not, then let me be”
Me I do not need thee
Off he went to be free
It came to me I thought
After it had gone
Maybe? The blue bird
Needed me for it to be
In that there tree.
Can you see
Can you see
That love you have for me
Break that spell
Tell me
tell me you love me
I long to hear the word
Even from afar
Even if you are near
Can you see
I am bored
I need to know
If you can see
Deep into your heart
For that love you have for me
MOM I need to know
That the love you have for me
Is deep in that cell
It can grow
And all we need is
To break the spell
Dad
In this time of sorrow
My broken heart
Is not sure who to follow
Dad who is strong and brave
And has the courage
Mother who is sad and blue
Doesn’t know what to do
And who will surely miss you
Sister who tries so hard
Not to say goodbye
Brother one follows her
Brother two has the desire for you life to go on
Is the answer all of the above
If I must chose one
Of course we know the answer
There really is only one-
Follow dad
He’s the strongest even though
He’s the sorrow
That may not be tomorrow
Dad your brave and strong
And courage
I pray when my time comes
That everyone sees me in your light
I know that you will be in my sight
Cancer has taken your
Your body away
But everyone has not realized
Your soul is always
Here to stay
The reason
You have to come get mom someday.
Death Stare
My father
Taken from me
Without a care
If only I could
Watch his stare
It happened suddenly so
One minuet he was there
The next
There was no more air
The cancer
Took him-
In only a matter of a year
So go ahead
Inhale and say
Who cares
Its only my air
Guess what
Anyone can have the
Death stare
Your air maybe yours
But when your loved ones
I’m sure
don’t want to be there-
When you take your last
Go ahead quit while quitting is good
I will be the one to say
Welcome to my hood
Quitters are winners
Theres only one decision for you
Quit while you can
Before you get the death stare
Did you ever love me
How was I to know
When I was a child
It never did show
Did you ever love me
How could I have known
Until I had mine own
Did you ever see
All I wanted was your love to show for me
All I ever wanted
Was that love that you owed me
Did you ever love me
Your story you never said
Now
That the love you had for me
Was very bold
Did you ever love me
Your story you never said
Now is to late
For me you are dead
Farewell
You left suddenly so
I feel as if
I did not know
A farewell was said
As they took you
from your bed
To lay at rest
Above our head
I look to the heaven
You were here
At not even eleven
A farewell was said
My father, I love you
I do not want you dead
You were wanted here
I cannot bring a tear
For if I do, I know that you
Will disappear
The grim reaper, he will come near
And take you to the skies
Everyone will say , here lies Paul Sr. father of 5, husband of 1
Grandfather to more, happy were his days
No resentments does he lay, but one
The tobacco company should pay
Father
Father
You sailed away on
Columbus day blue
I saw your wings spread wide
Just as you had died
Columbus accompanies you
He sailed you to the heavens
Was the family there with you
The ghost of our yesterdays past
Dad your little girl misses you
I know that someday
We shall see
The sights together
With our wings flying high and spread wide
Daddy I love you
I miss you already and you’ve been gone so shortly
What am I going to so
Just when things are feeling blue
I turn to email and find you
Making my day
In a surprising way
I wish we were with you
On this thanksgiving day
However the distance apart
Can only break my heart
Do here I will stay-There you will be
Celebrating the festivity in another way
Flirting
Come into my heart-Help me
Its as if you are pulling me apart
That kiss, that touch
Can’t you see
What your doing to me
I’m pulling to stay same
All I want is you to feel the same
Please please please
Hold , squeeze me
Tell me, tell me
It was just a kiss
A touch
Saying hello
Nothing more
Nothing from below
Nothing from the pit
All I want is to sit, sit here
Think think think
Oh god was that a wink
Oh no, was that oh yes
I thinkt it was a wink
-Flirt with me?
Friendship loves
A love so sweet
A hand so gently
Does he realize
How much he means
Only if he knew
That I do
His hair so black
As the whole that lay deep in my heart
His angelic eyes so
As the day ,
he opened the door
To my heat,
My soul was set free
Once more
Does he know
I think not
For if he knew my love-
I think he too would be shocked
Heart aches
A pain separates my heart
How do you stop
The pain that takes
Do you pray
What do you say
The man gave you life
He himself does not
Have much to live
You say
Dad its ok
You will be here in my heart
And forever we will never be apart.
Journey
From birth till death
We embark on a journey
Whether long or short
Simple of rough
In some journey love prevails
In others love family
And is tough
Some feel compete
While other must compete
The poorest of poor
Is a simple rich-Other just say
Why lifes just a bitch
Which way we choose
Is simple but
Decide
Me I am along for the ride
Waiting for fate
Fate will be my date
You never know
It could just choose
Your lifes soul mate
Then the simplest rich
Will no long be
Just a bitch
Someone once dais
Its all in a switch
Just flick it
And fate will pick it
Simple of rough
Is yours to choose
Love is lost
Our of the closet
Whence thy came
Did not leave a name
Said of life no more
Leave me now
for I grieve
A love of lest
A soul gone dry
All I can do is cry
Where are you now
Daddy’s little girl
Is longing for the
“its going to be ok, daddy’s little girl daddy’s here, daddy will take care of it all
Our of the closet
When thy came
They took you and your name
My only love
Your signature says
Only love
But your heart
Touches other parts
Can we please
Should we squeeze
onto all the lines
A letter provides
Our weekly
Or ever eventually lives
Oh my only love
Tell me so, do we dare
Say that only
We can care
My heart
Fills with a longing
For your words
Your heat
I say only
My love
You are my inspiration
My muse
Just please not to use
Players game
A players game
Get em while you can
More and more
But but but
What happens when a player
Meets a player terminator
He falls and falls
Harder than before
Singing sorrows
Of the heart
Guess what
The player plays no more
Says sorrows of yesteryear
Taylors fall
The first day of fall had begun
Taylor had laid on the hammock in the sun
He head swung and swung
Until he looked above
He noticed the leaves had begun
Begun to change
Green to oranges,
yellows, reds
“Oh no!” he said
As they began to fall
The he knew
Why they call this autumn thing fall
Suicide hints
A cry for help
Not heard
Signs not shown
Did you listen?
Were you there?
Suicide
-People sit
People wonder
Was it
Why did it happen-Suicide
Call
Scream
Decide
There is a process
To which is not known
Crying
Wondering
Then there is the end
Does it have to be
Just listen
Suicide
A cry for help
Not heard-Signs not shown
She came to me
She came to me in the night
Told me that is would be alright
I sense that I should not fright
I was calm and serene
For this was my angel
She wanted to show me the light
I felt as if it were a dream
She came to me in the night
She told me that I would be ok
She asked me to take the light
I knew that everything
Would be just right
The light I did not fright
Friendship road
We walk it
Some talk it
Others do both
You and I
We met only by phone
We write and never meet
Some say
Fate is what brought us
I say destiny never tells here
And fate always shows
Which road we choose
Is ours to deice
The friendship road
A long road continues
Throughout time
Other do both
Along the friendship road
I am glad that is its you and I
For without you I am alone
The game
A brief passing by
Of a love gone awry
So tender his touch
So rough his passion
His name is blank
Lust is his game
Feeling not the same
Hunger is his longing
For a sense of belonging
His lust he claims is a must
All he is, is a flaunt
How do I tell him
He is not what I want
Friendship is the game
That is my name
And nothing but the same
Come into my world
Take a closer look
See the blue in my heart
Without you all I feel is pain
I pray that you feel only the same
The past
The past is knocked
Knocked on my door
it has said
May I come in
Can we hang
As if the before
The door it shut
Shut
And outside it stayed
As if never to have knocked
For is the past had come in
The future would fade
And be dim
The sun
Theres a guy I know
So plan and boring
To him in the after light on a Saturday morning
You’d never know
You’d ask what are
You snoring all the other
Or is it only for your mother
Come closer to me-And let me see
Tell me I see all of thee
The life you’ve walked
The words you’ve talked
And even the ones you mocked
Tell me now
That its how
You want me
For if we become we
Our lives are one and we can become like the sun
Wink of time
In a wink of time
In a glimpse of space
A zest of line
A runners pace
Take this back
Grab it hard
Show it now slack
let down your guard
Let the spells of time
Be guided by your rhyme
Time to say adieu
On this Christmas eve
I leaned that it is time to say adieu
To you my father
My life you were there
My love we have shared
On this Christmas eve
I know that I must say to you
Its time to say adieu-
I love you
I know its hard I know its not easy for you
Knowing that its time to say adieu
Even though we know
That we all love you
You shall be missed
Fore there is no words that can replace
The man we know
Trading future for past
Trading future for past
technology he says
Is what brought us here
Now the time of yesteryear
Awaits only fear
For together we are here
Dare I awake
In another time
I only need
For if he is there
I would stay and say
Here is for me
Take the technology back
As long as my only love
Awaits
For he’s what makes
Snail mail worth the wait
If his pen would touch in knowing
I take the such
You cared
You never showed
You never said
Yet you kept everything I ever did
If I had not asked
I would not know
That the words you said
Were not your own-Should I cry
Wipe a tear from my eye
You never showed
You never said
Why did you keep everything I ever did
Can’t you see
You changed me
You cared
If you could just say it
I know that now I would believe it
Dawn ago
Once an early dawn ago
The sun did rise
The birds did sing
People began to move
Something happened though
It did not show
The clouds did go
The flowers bloomed
The grass greened
Life was
As beautiful as a summers rose
Spring has sprung
And the season had begun
Love is in the air and beauty is everywhere
I awoke
I awoke this morning feeling blue
That is until fate stepped in
And unbelievable showed me
That I too am important in what I do
Some say jealousy
I say envy
You sleep till noon
Oh I am so jealous you have a job
An so little time
I envy you
You have time for everyone
I am so jealous of you
Your jealous of me? Now you know
Why I hate me-Why can’t you see
Why don’t you care
What you want from me
Money I don’t have
Love you do not give
I don’t want to
For if love is not your intention
Please forgive me
For the nest you see it shall be a t funeral for me
One morning I awoke to the sun shining brightly in the sky
Oh my
What is that?
Can you see?
Did you notice?
It was floating by
we call it lived
But all I wanted to do was die.
Wish
Did you ever see
I think not for I watched
Hoping, praying, that it would be me
How long did it take for the love we one had to wake and run
What did I do to make you
hate me so
Did I ruin your life
Did I not give enough of it
You once love me
My only wish-Can we go back to then
it is just a wish for this I know because you told me no
My favorite place
Everyday I pass you by
Awaiting to see
Which day you choose to play shy
Your days of free brings me a laugh
Your days of shy
Bring me a longing
I often wonder
Do you make others ponder
Feel that sense of belonging
In the distance
Is where you sit
Almost saying I’m in a fit
That for which you choose
Shall not be mine
But only for you to lose
My favorite place-
But is only a far off space-Occupied by another
Shyness place
What will be tomorrow
Mother
As I sit here at your feet
I see the angels taking seat
Dad at your right saying don’t you fright
Gram at your head-Saying you nothing to dread
Nancy on your left saying her prayers
John asking me to move
his time is coming near
to help you go from here
We will miss you so much
Losing your touch
Your love your voice
we pray for healing
We know of our hearts
That eventually we will be apart
We worked out our pain
Love came out
And things weren’t the same
Time to say goodbye
It’s now your bout
I just want you to know I don’t want you to die
I love you mother there is now doubt
Gathering
Gathering here is their duty,
Family call for all-Past and present still to come
Loved and lost
Angels of yesteryear
An tomorrow too are gathering here
Don’t fret no
one for they are here with mom
She leaves us now for a while
During the snowy season-
With our healing we can grow
Least we smile looking for a reason
To keep this season
Cheerful and bright
Wishing you were not the one they are gathering for
Lost
Lost in nothingness
Feeling sad and blue
Wanting love or kindly thoughtfulness
Just someone for her to woo
A pet would surely do
Little girl lost
Now found with something to do
Little girl found her whole world turned around
Lost no more
The pet surely did
that’s her start nothing can take apart